but I hope it wont be painful...
This is way too long to proof read so I'm not doing it, this is a personal blog not the New York Times so get over it!
Once upon a time... (really did I just
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| Making it was better then any movie |
Okay in all seriousness this is the story of when I first met the LOVE of my life. I honestly really really try not to be that girl who is always talking about her boyfriend and how happy she is because well who really wants to hear that, other than well I guess my Mother. Either way I strongly believe in love and I think there are a number of "layers" or "levels" if you will for LOVE. I also believe in fate and God's plan (not a "crazy Christian" but I will totally reference Him when necessary).
It was my sophomore year at UH #gocoogs I had the privilege of joining the lovely and beautiful ladies of Alpha Chi Omega yup thats right not only am I this fabulous I was also once a sorority girl!
At UH #gocoogs the greek community is relatively small compared to larger schools, being apart of a sorority is a great way of getting to know girls and making life long friends (why did I just say that oh yeah bc it's true). Of course there were parties and being the social person that I am I was at as many of those as physically possible (lets look at it as networking) : )
Joe is not a native Texan, he is actually from Ohio small town hottie (fasho).
One night at a party I was with two of my all time favorite sisters my other half Lucy and my Little Siham (se-ham not SAM). Of course at the party we are having fun checking out the guys or at least that's what I was doing at the time (really Sarah) so anyways I remember looking around the room at all the new faces it was around the time of year when fraternities are looking for new members (Spring 07) so the house was full of new and familiar faces. BOOM*** I was looking toward the "DJ's" table and I see him (think about the moment Bella first laid eyes on EDWARD, yup it was that magical for me), the most beautiful guy I've ever laid eyes on. The sad thing about this is I actually remember the exact outfit he was wearing down to the preppy Hollister accessories he had on... ITS SAD I KNOW. I highly doubt he even remembers his own outfit non the less this night. I was just in aw at this guy I "discreetly" (totally b.s) tell Lucy that I've spotted a hottie, not that we are going to do anything about it but burn our eyes into him haha. It was the best 45 seconds of my life thus far, then BOOM I lost him (OF COURSE).
We eventually left that party and went across the street to our favorite frat house (just think of Animal House and that's pretty much them). We are hanging with our "boys" (some of the wildest and funniest kids out there that's for sure). The night goes on I was still picturing that beautiful guy in my head, but I was more than surprised to see his wonderful face at THIS PARTY! Still didn't talk to him, until...
one of the "boys" actually knew him and introduced Joe to us and yeah that's it. (LAMEEEEEE)
Long story short I never did anything about the love at first sight dilemma for one thing I had a boyfriend (who was not Greek nor was he attending UH #gocoogs), second I couldn't find the will to say much to him at all like ever. Even after time went by and we pretty much ran in the same circle. I'm not sure if he intimidated me or if I believed he would never be interested in me. (ME NOT BE AGGRESSIVE whaaat)
Forwarding to when I became a "terrible person" in my own eyes, I was still with the boyfriend at that time yet I eventually started flirting with Joe every chance I got. I couldn't help it he was perfect in my eyes. Things progressed and got very dramatic of course and of course it was my fault I had a boyfriend I was also leading another guy on in hopes that I'd leave the then boyfriend and Joe would want me. In my case that crap didn't work at all (NOT even close). Especially when the two crossed paths on my 21st birthday... (awkward)
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| My G-little, Little and I all turned 21 that weekend. xoxo |
Fast forward a little more and we are in 2008 to early 2009, the relationship was about to end I don't think Joe and I even spoke, mostly just friendly if we saw one another. I ended up getting DUMPED (VIA MUTHA FING TEXT, the bastard) yup, at the time it pretty much killed me (or so I thought). I did my best to build trust back into the relationship I think I did everything I could but in the end the boyfriend knew deep down about my feelings for Joe or at least he assumed I was cheating on him with Joe. Which for the record was not happening understandably the guy was jealous and insecure. Anyways It took me a LONG time to move on (just ask Lucy, Siham and Diana) from that relationship, being that it was my first meaningful relationship.
I dated others, nothing too serious. I saw Joe every now and then at football games, bars, etc. We kept it friendly made small talk you know the norm, yet every time I saw him I felt what I felt that first night it's crazy I know. But again nothing came about it, (total chicken) I think our paths just didn't want to collide yet.
Last fast forward I promise, it's 2011 I'm again dating another older guy (maybe I didn't mention that about the first bf he was older), nothing is really coming of that as I had expected or hoped for (no relationship). Which I did realize and decided I had to just move on but I was not sure how. I guess I saw Joe at a mutual friends house maybe a few weeks or months before, and I like to think maybe I stuck in his head some how. BOOM there he is so randomly texting me, asking if I had plans on going out that weekend. For what seems like a month but was probably a few weeks I never saw him but we kept friendly random text conversation. I was still seeing the older guy and I didn't want to have the same situation I had with leading along two guys again (even if I wasn't his GF it's the principle) so I was determined to just keep it friendly with Joe while I was still seeing the other guy (SMART girl I know).
Late July rolls around and my little #2's wedding was coming up and of course I was dateless. I saw less of the older guy and pretty much started disconnecting myself nothing was coming out of dating him at least not the type of relationship I wanted (I mean I was seeing him for almost a year and half and we never had "the talk") that relationship ended and he left the country for a short period which I think came in handy in helping me moving on. We did speak while he was away but it was kind of all arguing or just "checking in" I guess. SO of course I ask my beloved JOE to be my date and maybe he knew I had recently been involved with the older guy maybe he didn't but just to my luck Joe couldn't go to the wedding with me either haha so I ended up taking my "twin" we had a BLAST.
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| Me, PJ, Mel, Keleigh, Siham and Reema @ the wedding duh |
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| BEAUTIFUL |
After I came back from the wedding which was held August 13th (think TWILIGHT, Keleigh has the best anniversary date everr) I was communicating more and more with Joe (actually even during my weekend in N.O.L.A), and he actually asked me out! ON A REAL DATE! WHATTTTTTT omg
Okay I know what your thinking there wasn't much time in between the two relationships and your right there wasn't (was it even a relationship, NO). I was honest with the older guy he knew I had asked Joe to be my "back up date", it didn't seem to bother him (leading me further to believe he wasn't for me), now was my chance to finally see what could come of Joe and I. I was not going to take this opportunity for granted this time.
So Joe and I go to an Astros game on a Friday (August 19th), I see him again Saturday and that Sunday it was the best weekend of my life! I couldn't believe I had three dates in a row with JOE. I remember telling Lucy about it and she too was shocked not about the dates but that we still after all this time seem to have a connection. Soon after he asks me to be his girlfriend and DUH I SAY YES!
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| He kept the tix, God I love him |
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| The day of my graduation. Joe and I |
Today Joe and I have been together for only 17 months (really that's it, that's nothing) but I know we are going to be together for the rest of our lives. The connection between us is like no other and yeah yeah I know everyone thinks that about their relationship and yeah I know your thinking "it's been a year crazy ass girl". But I am not alone when I saw "WE" know we are meant for each other. There is no way in hell I am going to do anything to jeopardize my relationship with Joe, I've waited what seems like forever for my chance with him and I want it to last as long as it possibly can. He is the love of my life and I can confidently say that without questioning it. I see all the twists and turns that have occurred that kept us apart as being necessary for whatever reason, I also see those twists and turns as great learning experiences for me to prepare for Joe and to experience life without him.
I'm not saying its going to be smooth sailing from now on, now that I have the guy I've always wanted but I think I've had my share of time with other guys and time alone to know he is the one I want to be with for the rest of my life (JESUS when did I get so sappy).
Maybe I am wrong maybe I'm not but only time will tell and this is MY love story and this is how it is so get over it (haha). I'm happy and totally head over heels and I am not afraid to say it nor show it (I rather not, P.D.A is not my thing but I will if I want to).
This is the way I remember it all maybe he remembers it all differently but I think the main points are right and who knows maybe I'll get him to write his version and we can compare the two.
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| I just found this, I think it's perfect |
The End? No that's not right... A true LOVE story Never ends.
Sarah xoxo
p.s Lucy when you read this don't be shocked that I'm so "soft" ; )
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